June 17, 2009

Why Do I Feel So Alone?

Why do I feel so alone? I’ve been so out of tune with my inner self lately I don’t know what’s going on,(reason for lack of blog post and work ethic with my artwork) I guess I’m struggling trying to find that peace of mind, that peace within myself and my world. I know soon that I will find that peace, but honestly it’s a struggle because sometimes I feel like I’m all by myself on this earth. I get the feeling like I’m just somebody floating in space lost amongst the stars somewhere. Some of those who have known me before look at me as if I was a faded memory some don’t speak or even acknowledge my presence at all. I never cared about this kind of thing before but for some reason this has been getting to me. But it’s all good I will continue to live my life and they will live there’s I shouldn’t let that hinder me from my world. At times I feel like I just stand out from the rest, I’m not saying I’m above anyone but just different from the rest of the pack. It’s like I’m a bright red in this grey world that I’m in its getting to bland around here and it needs some color. For some reason I feel like I don’t stand out enough, is it good that I don’t stand out as much and that I blend in with everyone else. No, I’m an individual there’s only one me in this world why would I want to fit into a standard as someone else why would I choose to be the same as the next man, but as I come closer to finding my core self I find myself standing out more and more each day and becoming and I find myself getting closer to finding that peace of mind that I’ve been searching for. Even though you might not see me now soon enough my light will be so bright that you won’t help but to see me shine. Though I feel so alone in this world sometimes, that feeling goes away cause I realize that I’m really not I have my family and my closest friends that always will remain in my circle. And that’s how it should be, for this reason I should never feel alone for any reason.

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